At some point, you got to wake up and realise " Hey wake up, that person never gave a shit about you and probably never will".

At some point, you got to wake up and realise "Hey wake up, stop trying to justify his/her actions to yourself".

At some point, you got to wake up and realise " Hey wake up, he/she is not answering you all the time because he/she is away/busy ,he/she is just not interested in talking to you".

At some point , you got to wake up and realise " Hey wake up, and wake your senses up at the same time, the neon " Never Gonna Happen" sgin is flashing right in your face"


If its meant to be, it probably shld'nt be this hard?

Experiences probably made the optimism issue worst

How do you know if something is worth fighting for?

And then when you start wanting to let go, you start thinking of the "what ifs and If onlys" and yeap letting go is as much of a bitch as hanging on.

So a toast to "Love" and how it is so awesome at screwing many of us up:)

I've got to be at the place where airplanes are in, let me see, less than 11 hours time . I hope they have got decent speed internet connection in the rooms there,which they apparently did'nt have last year:( I'm gonna be there for the 2nd time, I wonder how boring the same attractions will appear to me this time. At least its with different companions this time. I need to remember to keep my stuff safe from those scums. hmmmmm...

About 80% of my december will be spent outside this tiny island. How nice.


Miss me till Friday:) till then, Vietnam here I come...again. and a whole month next year again for oitp. NAICE.

A few minutes/seconds/(insert other terms of time) before I jolted awake this afternoon (cause i hardly wake up before 12pm), I had a funny little dream. As much as i try to recall what took place, I only remember the words "May I peel your petal?" coming from someone which i don't remember who (or maybe I do) followed by an awesome moment and then cutting a whole chicken pie to solve a math quiz-.-. They say dreams are what you think about during the day carried into your sleep but I don't think I was even thinking about peeling petals and cutting chicken pies. WEird. But I realised many of my dreams of where I am residing take place at my old condo never my current house. WEiRd.

Caught New Moon with Jm, Claire and her bro. We all know it isn't gonna be an awesome show but still I had to watch it. Its better than Twilight the 1st movie for sure but there are still numerous slow moving parts that would make one feel like sleeping on a long tiring day like this. Dakota Fanning is awesome!

3hrs IBN lesson tommorow. Pure Torture. I would skip it (for the rest of my natural life) if not for fear of the lack of attendance for this damn class. Its so damn boring. Period


I have yet to awake the inner mugger for next weeks MSTs...so far I've done, let me seee...ABsoultely NOTHING. Lazing around watching how I met your mother and funny/weird movies like EuroTrip. What up!

Jeez...I think I dreamt of mmmmm...
but I can't remember what the dream was about-.-...
Think it is'nt the 1st time it happened...



lol

can I fast foward my life past those bloody muggings i have to do before MSTs...grrr I so feel like being at an awesome seaside hearing the sound of crashing waves with an awesome read on my lap.

I swear I wish it was true.

Hmmm looks good.

 Oh gawd wtf. I feel so effed up and upset today, making me feel like spilling buckets and I have no idea why. Everything feels so wrong today. I feel so rejected when nothing actually rejected me. What the f is wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!


Messed up and lost='(

 I still hear the ongoing mocking laughters of the past.

Its a question I can never get around or find answers to. What did I do wrong? I always ask myself, only to have no answer at all.

Its a huge fear that similar cases can happen again in some what similar social type. to be part of that, to falling for one of the part of that, to it ending and winding up a huge joke of that. 

Why should I feel the need to justify myself to someone who would not care?

Why can't things just be plain and simple.

LOL@ u Christopher! He placed his fatherhood on the line at our badminton session today! Cracked us up lol! That was one epic moment! haha!

 We had cute little ang moh trick or treaters at our door yesterday night! Lucky my mum was prepared with Halloween candies for them. How cute! I think I should get a bunch of friends for Halloween to go trick or treating around my estate next year haha! Was wondering what if I didn't give them sweets and opted for a trick instead? hmmm... 

For me I spend my Halloween in WoW's Halloween event.sad.

Celebrated Jm's 18th at Minds cafe 1 day belated the one near dhauby ghaut haha. It was fun, but I guess someone stressing over her A's even on her bdae:( Minds cafe food isn't really good, in fact it isn't good at all but I guess you don't go there for just the food.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL!

 

:( my parents threaten to cut my pocket money if I shop online so often. I guess that means no more online shopping for awhile:( 

Aston's with the girls at the cathay yesterday! Felt so sinful eating all those food haha!






I got them cheap! Just for the sake of it.!




I can feel the workload slowly piling in, sianzzz.

What is the point of telling someone their faults, to help them change when they will say "I'm like that, can't help it" -.- Defeats the entire purpose please.

YES! I Passed my BTT! wee! 2nd try! but at least!

AHH 2nd day into school, the modules like so...sian...

I'm still in holiday moood!=[


sigh it feels like ages since... 

Yes! I got more than I expected for my 2-day non chionging Comex fair work. nice...



I would love very much to have what S has too. but so far I'm always one of the boys. I might naturally grow a freggin dick:(. Joke! no. srsly. :)

Came back from GYL chalet yesterday. Didn't know there are huge assed bungalows at Pasir Ris for rent. So let me sum up what we did. Lan- 3hs of l4d plus CS and then Kbox till 2am, back to chalet to chill.shower etc, and kings game (bloddy hell sway) till about 7 plus am in the morning and then knock out. Mac delivery breakfast, I still feel like eating Mcgridels now! Home sweet home. Did'nt stay another night.
Need to faster get to 80, but lvling is damn sian at times. rock band is kinda fun! haha 

Outing with the girls. Shopping (im broke to the max), neoprints,early dinner which is making me hungry now, chilling out. 





Oh boy tell me how can i save a few Ks. I want a Miu Miu bag! Its not the brand its the designs! Don't see any bag as nice as t

Caught it with seaweed...yes again. haha!
 

It was a rather nice show in a different way. Its shown where the story moves forward then backwards from 488 day to day 1 then just switches. Some really hilarious moments. 

( WARNING: Spoiler up ahead! )

Movie at vivo with Cy, Sr, Mich and Cg. Then had to rush home before the rush hour and help my mum cook. Yeah Imma good girl!

Not bad a movie! Very interesting with a different kind of story. Should go watch!

I think those who play MMORPG games and are always online somehow have a surrogate of their own which is their online character in a different world. hmmm....

tata. shower>dinner>WoW