The library has been my home for the past week, unfathomable how I can spend more than half a day inside there surviving through the wall of words on vending chips, caffeine runs, hot paninis and nicotine breaks.If not for my flatmate I wouldn't be arsed to get to the library. THFH. She is so focused!
Exam periods suck more than periods. There is no ibuprofen for this. I just really want to get through this year. Not the least bit confident at all. I like my course and I wouldn't take anything else, but 13 years of examinations never grew on me. I don't think it grows on anyone anyway. On the bright side, 3 more weeks to the end of year one. How time flies. Too fast.

This is always the hardest part. Leaving.
No matter how many practiced time. It never fails to be hard.

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Totally regret not doing my work properly during term time. why oh why did I not make nice neat notes then.

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer


I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more


Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer


I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer


I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

The past few weekends have been good,seeing a little more of places outside Birmingham, albeit the fact that I traded homework for traveling. Who wants homework instead of traveling anyway? but duties and responsibilities.

Covered quite some pretty places, London, Lake District and Liverpool. Feels amazing to travel minus the post traveling blues I always get.

Went to London a few weeks back for the main purpose of attending the UKSSC DnD. Really glad it gave me an excuse to catch up with an old friend. Love walking around the streets of London and spending limited cash on good food at lovely cafes and essentially just chilling out with good company. I always have fun in London, hope that doesn't change.




The week after, it was a day tripped to Lake District. The bus ride was too long and the seats were unfortunately hellish coupled with it being the dreaded time of the month. But the almost 4 hour long bus ride to and fro was worth it as when we got there the sun decided to show its glorious self. With the perpetual English gloom the sun is much treasured. The rolling hills and pretty lakes. It was pretty much a perfectly chillax day!





and then to Liverpool last weekend!

One of the best nights, crazy but good.




Traveling frees one from the clutches of everyday life. So many places I want to escape to, so many things I want to do.

Home bound this weekend. I cannot wait to see all the people that form the best parts of my life.

When you said you wanted to be able to provide me with a good life... I could summon nothing but tears of anguished guilt for the terrible insinuations.

There exist no other like you.

This heart, this soul, yours to take.

Lovely weekend in London proper with my Aunt whom I haven't seen in years. Much needed mini break after all essay submissions. Went to a few place around London, gorged on so much sugar-loaded stuff (need to work doubly hard at the gym now). This relaxing, fuss free weekend is simply liberating. Home-cooked soup and breakfast and someone to look after you, feels amazingly good and homely. The weather on Sunday was perfect, the sun decided to show its face and we managed to get a seat at a quaint cafe beside the canal. Real nice spot to chill out and drink coffee minus the sun shining in our face.


All the decadent pretty food not to mention my sweet treats: macaroons and cupcakes. The Nasi Lemak was not bad, western standard, the rice was crap but the rest of it was better than expected.


 

Terribly sad that my Aunt is leaving England for good soon:(. Who am I going to feel homely with now after she goes back?

In holiday withdrawal right now:(

Need to make more nice trips like that. Keeps me upbeat and going.

Travel frees one's soul and opens the mind

Happy 1st Valentine's Day Beee. 6000 miles apart. We can do this baby!

Not again. Mr Rut is here once more. Remember the last I felt this rutty was during a period of time in Poly. Don't you ever get the feeling that you are on a hamster wheel doing the same repetitive things over and over again, not looking forward to anything at all and not being excited about anything at all. Endless amounts of reading, unending treadmill tracks and not enough endorphin rushes.

Feels like I'm floating through my time, day in, day out, struggling to find some semblance of excitement. Seems like I've lost my way, without a destination in sight.

where is my secret escape tunnel?

Rutty rut rut. blah.